I've never told this to anyone before, but for some reason just remembered it again today. I think I'll never forget how one time when I was a kid, me and parents went shopping: we probably went just to get some housekeeping sort of things, but while at it mom noticed a clothing store and me and her went to check it out. The money were tight, and seeing mom trying on the cheapest items and then buying them only because they were so unbeliavably cheap and she needed new clothes and not because she liked them had such a big impact on me - I cried so damn hard when we got home. I cried while in the shower so that no one could hear, I cried and cried, whispering "she was buying the cheapest" to myself over and over. I believe those were the best, the purest and the most meaningful tears I've ever cried. And that's how I wanna cry from now on, and not for stupid reasons, so I'm thankful to the lesson from the past - from the little me to the bigger me.
Gonna go give mom a call now.
Gonna go give mom a call now.
This makes me want to cry! Thanks for sharing your memory.
ReplyDeleteMy eyes are watery now... How unselfish parents and especially moms are!
ReplyDeleteThe title of your post scared me for a second — I thought maybe something tragic happened today. This turned out to be a really sweet, sentimental post. Thanks for sharing such a personal moment from your past. This also makes me think back to a moment in my childhood, too...
ReplyDeletePS. Your comment "tssk tssk" just made me laugh (about the cigarettes). And THANK YOU for always complimenting the painted walls I photograph :^)
It always amazes me what parents do for their children. And mine like yours were the best. Yay for good parents!
ReplyDeleteWhat a post Julia! It made me very sad and touched all at once- those do seem like real tears because you can tell you loved your mom so much and wanted the best for her but didn't feel like she was getting it. This little paragraph is very touching- I can remember times when I saw my parents sad or weak or something and how much it hurt me. I love this and the fact that you wrapped it up by saying you are thankful for real tears- brilliant.
ReplyDelete...oooh Julia , this is the most wonderful thing I ever heard ..I had few tears in my eyes reading this little story ..unconditional love - that is beautiful ..I think your mama is very proud of you , I hope she know about your tears that will make her feel so appreciated darling ..and that is so true -those must be the best tears ..
ReplyDeleteEllinelle xxx
so touching post....maybe the most inspired...well done,Julia...
ReplyDeleteHow unbelievably powerful and touching! Thank you so much for sharing Julia, you've inspired me.
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